I told myself in school that I’d never allow myself to fall into a soulless 9-5 job in a depressing cubicle, but here I am.
Honestly, nothing in life turned out the way I was hoping.
I’m 30 years old now and nowhere closer to achieving my dreams than I was when I was 18. And If I had to be fully truthful with myself, I don’t really believe that I ever will. I told myself that I need to get used to laboring in this dead end job until I can afford to go back to university and get a better degree. It’s not all horrible though, since I recently got a raise at work when my productivity improved a good amount. All of a sudden I was feeling more comfortable at my desk everyday, and I was getting a lot less distracted as a result. Eventually I learned that management had entirely upgraded the antiquated heating and cooling device one weekend while pretty much everyone was at home. I was stunned that something as straight-forward as upgrading the a/c device could have such a significant effect on my work productivity. At the same time, it makes sense—if you easily feel comfortable, you’re less likely to fidget and distract yourself. With comfortable indoor air, I can easily remain focused for numerous hours at a time separate from my brain strolling off. If I had to make a request, I’d ask for improved chairs too. With enough improvements, my attitude on my current job and my place in life might change for the better. It doesn’t seem to feel as soulless when I can make a legitimate living in climate controlled comfort.